Devious Journal Entry

Just a few things I need to say to all my watchers, and visitors to my page...
Some, hmmm, changes in my "policy"... I don't know... You don't have to read this, it's stupid.
First of all, I need to let you know that I'm still learning English, even though I may spend more time using, uderstanding and writing/thinking in English than in my native language... It's still not perfect.
So...
I've been getting so many messages lately. It's hard to keep up.
I've decided I won't be answering to every  comment on my profile anymore, and I also won't be posting on anoyone's profile. It would just take too much time, I can't afford it. And it's so repetitive and pointless anyways.
I will be reading all the comments. I will answer if there would be something important to say. I will answer to every comment on any of my works or journals... At least I will try.
I don't want you to think that I feel so "significant" or "popular", that I won't bother to talk to anyone... I'm really sorry. I just can't. I'm really bad at talking to people, in fact, here on dA that's the only opportunity I have to talk to people. And it's in English.
I feel a little guilty, that all the feedback I've been receiving, it's only because I've been giving llamas to random people. I don't want to, ymm... impose anything on anyone. Please, don't watch me just because I gave you a llama...
I am really thankful for all the faves, watches, llamas and comments I receive.
I hope I won't get bored with dA in the near future, and that I will continue to post art here, improve and all that.
I need to start commenting more. Like, leaving feedback. You people have been so nice to me, and I don't give anything in return...
I already feel stupid for writing this.
I'm so sorry... Maybe I need to stop apologising?
I promise I will work on that. Everything I said here.
I had that idea, that maybe I could thank with journals, like, every week or so, tag everyone who has faved my works, and maybe feature their art... Umm, what do you think? Still seems like too much work...?
Maybe I should stop with the Star Wars art already?
I'm just trying to be honest and truthful here. To say what's been on my mind lately... Ask for advice or something. I'm new to all this.
Maybe I should just shut up. Who do I think I am?
I need to spend less time on dA. And I will, even if I don't want it, because I need to find a job. Or go to school. I need to figure out what to do with my life. I think I started drawing so much recently because I don't have anything else to do, and I got bored with watching movies.
Maybe I don't draw that much anyway.
I hope you can understand what I'm trying to say here. I'm just trying to be myself, but I don't know who I am. Or who I want to be. I never knew... They say, fake it until you make it, but I don't even know what to fake. Maybe I'm faking already.
I want to thank everyone who's reading this, for reading this. Really, it must be so boring. I don't want to say that I'm sorry again, but I'm sorry.
Do what you want people, don't feel obligated to give me anything, okay?
It's just some random thoughts.
I'm trying to teach myself to be more responsible. That I need to take responsibility for what I post... I will not allow myself to delete this. I know I will want to take it all back, I will be afraid that someone might take it seriously and respond to it, and that I will have to respond to them...
I'm weird. Am I weird?
What?
Wouldn't feel so weird if I used some emoticons. Stupid me, haha.
Have a nice day everyone. Thanks again.